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Last day of the year [Dec. 31st, 2007|02:47 pm]
yilingme
[Current Mood |awake]
[Current Music |shadow of the day]

So many things happened this year. Being loved by so many people. Especially him. It's okay. Totally okay. Let's hope that we will be super happy.
Thanks for everything. Memories, stand by me and loved me. Thank you!

New year resolution will be:

Be super happy
Let go things that are not meant to be
Make more friends
Let's really be friends!
Study real hard.
Love my grandparents even more.
I would want to love 2008!

Bye, 2007. You'll be my memories..

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he's the reason for the tear drops. [Dec. 14th, 2007|11:55 pm]
yilingme
[Current Mood |crazycrazy]
[Current Music |hate that i love you]

I got so much to say and yet it's hard to express in words. Now is 12am 15th of dec. The day that makes me happy only if a few months back nothing happened. I looked through my calender once and i totally hope that this day will come back right now, i hope it just stop at 7th sep. 

I did so much things for these few months. 
I went clubbing. And i'm going to go 3 times and it will be the end. Let's see. Yen tinge will know the reason why.

I sprined my legs and went to see the chinese physcian. I asked why my legs and hands recently will shake uncontrollably. She asked me whether i'm someone who lose temper easily or i'm too depress. I figured it out it might be too depress. In the end, she said that if i do not stop it. A sickness called dont what will fall on me. 

Okay. Next. I've working ikea with cindy. There is a ballroom for the kids. Then cindy and i were suppose to give out balloons. Some parents dont know why stop their childen from getting it. Then i asked cindy. "Will you let your child take balloon?" and she said "No". evil mother haha.. 

anyway two kids said "thank you. AUNTIE!" when i gave them the balloon. One was with his father so i just "HUH" and smile. The other was alone so i stopped him and said "Not auntie is JIE JIE!" haha.. Cindy kept laughing non-stop. 

got once when cindy and i were walking in orchard road, we saw a guy using tripod stand to take pictures of his gf. Damn funny.

Today went swimming with yawen and geraldine. And i got sun burn from it.. Argh.. 














the pro yen tinge hahaha








black and white


the colours


working times


and i wish you are here like you used to be

 


We asked a korean boy to help us take pic.


Then we asked him again. Think he purposely anyhow take so that we wont ask him again.





















for more pictures from clubbing
http://www.borntomug.blogspot.com/

Are we really friends now? Happy?

8th months to the past.
 

Rihanna - Hate That I Love You lyrics


[Rihanna:]
That's much I love you (yeah)
That's how much I need you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
And I can't stand ya
Most everything you do
Make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile (no...)

[Ne-Yo:]
Cuz' you won't let me
You upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)
Can't remember what you did

[Rihanna:]
But I hate it...
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long that's wrong

[Ne-Yo:]
But I hate it...
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't want to fuss... and fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you

[Rihanna:]
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...)
I can't stand how much I need you (I need you...)
And I hate how much I love you boy (oooh whoa...)
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so (oooh...)

[Ne-Yo:]
And you completely know the power that you have
The only that one makes me laugh

[Rihanna:]
Sad and it's not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I... love you beyond the reason why (why...)
And it just ain't right

[Ne-Yo:]
And I hate how much I love you girl
I can't stand how much I need you (yeah...)
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so

[Both:]
One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...

[Ne-Yo:]
Yeaahhh... Oohh...

[Rihanna:]
As much I love you (as much as I need you oh...)
As much as I need you (oooh... as so much I love you)
As much I love you (oh...)
As much as I need you

[Rihanna:]
And I hate that I love you soooo
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need ya (cant stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go (but I just can't let you go no...)
And I hate that I love you so

And I hate that I love you so... soo...
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only if you're around [Dec. 3rd, 2007|07:16 pm]
yilingme
[Current Mood |indescribableindescribable]
[Current Music |That's how you know]

I just watched enchanted. It was a great movie. The movie song keeps running on my mind. I wanted to watch with someone but i don't think it will happened just like fairy tales.I don't believe in fairy tales but the story line was really good.

Some sentences in that movie touched me but the movie was pretty funny.

I spained foot and it hurts badly yesterday. I felt so lonely. Dad didn't pick up the call. Mummy and kor kor were busy working. I felt so helpless once again. And one message broke me down. It doesn't meant much but it's cold.

Today daddy was supposed to bring me to the chinese physician. I don't know if i managed to describe that correctly. But nevermind. In the end i never go cause he was really tired and i don't want to trouble him. Then when i reached home, my maid didn't cook dinner, Mummy and kor kor aren't at home once again. I felt so angry and upset with myself and i cried. Because i really feel that i'm too weak. It's just a injury and i can't manage it myself. 

First thing that mummy said when she is home was " you never tell her whether you having dinner here or outside!"
She didn't even ask about my my leg and wny i'm crying.

I don't need love and concern anymore. I'm sorry for saying this but i'm in pain.

And only if you're around.. 

I felt so silly cause i have no idea why i love you so much and beyond more what i knew it was. 
I just couldn't let you go when times and times i wanted to and strongly believe i needed to.
The day when he left at the bus stop, tears just couldn't stop flowing out. At least, i managed to be strong in front of him. Cause i know if i breakdown infront of him, it will hurt him too ( not because he loves me but because of what he had done to me. ) and he will avoid me even more.

Happy as friends? I doubt so. Why do i feel more pain than ever..

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nobody say it will be this hard. [Nov. 30th, 2007|11:52 pm]
yilingme
[Current Mood |calmcalm]

For the past few months, i'm not who i am. Someone has turned to into another person. Always in melancholy mood.

I know i'm not the only one suffering from this pain. I've been trying so hard. It doesn't even work any better. And you're totally true about me running in circles. I just couldn't get out if it. I wanted myself to be happy as well. But i wanted even more for you to be happy. Love.


Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I've set you apart

Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
oh, let's go back to the start

Running in circles
Comet tales
Heads on the science apart

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

oh, let's go back to the start

Running in circles
Comet tales
Heads on the science apart

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing
The numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart

Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh, when I rush to the start

Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Comin' back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard

I’m going back to the start...

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I shouldn't [Nov. 10th, 2007|05:15 pm]
yilingme
[Current Mood |sillysilly]

I'm just so dumb. Ironic with this word. 

I shouldn't have seen it but i did it anyway. Whatever is left in this relationship. It doesn't matter anymore. 

I should be happy that you've move on so far than i would ever know. And i guess it was really over. So silly of me. But i don't care cause i won't beg anymore. I had did whatever i could. What you said when you left means nothing anymore. 

I'm just hurting myself for loving and missing you more each day. I just couldn't take it anymore. Anymore.
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It's been two months [Nov. 8th, 2007|11:30 pm]
yilingme
[Current Mood |melancholymelancholy]
[Current Music |You and me]

Two months passed so fast. 
But the feelings is still the same or maybe even stronger. 

I've tried. It couldn't work. 

But i will try even harder. 

I looked through photos and videos in my camera. I listened and watched videos on the day of us watching fireworks.
You calling out my name. It was there but not here anymore. When i close my eyes to listen to everything. The image seems to be there and tears came down. It's a mixed feelings. Sadness and happiness in it. 

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive





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Kor kor [Nov. 2nd, 2007|02:25 pm]
yilingme
[Current Mood |sillysilly]
[Current Music |L.O.A.D s]

Today is my Bro's brithday. Then out of randomess, i remember the last birthday i celebrated was caleb's brithday.

I wanted to get kor kor something but look at those men's section makes me think of someone again. I want my happy pill. So i shall get myself one. : )

At the end, i really don't know what to get for kor kor. So i decide to give him money. I know that is not very sincere but at least i went to town alone to look for his present. I felt quite sad for myself that day. Sick and yet i insist in going out. I'm too stubborn. I remembered myself crying so badly. I wished someone was there. But of course. Nobody came. Cindy and amanda were with their bfs. But when they know what happened, they wanted to come and find me.

Sometimes i feel so bad when they are with their bfs and they have to come with their bfs to go out with me. Maybe i should learn to go out with myself.

Just me and my bag, water bottle, wallet, camera and ipod. OKay i wondered why i would want to bring camera when i'm alone. Ipod really help me to ease my boreness. 

Oh ya.. seeing all the cuts on my arms and leg. I'm so stupid. Monday i got cuts on my arms then on wed, i got a longer cut on my leg. I'm just so stupid and silly. 
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Over it [Oct. 30th, 2007|10:28 pm]
yilingme
[Current Mood |refreshedrefreshed]
[Current Music |Over it]

 I just recovered my my sickness though i still have some coughing. It was terrible for me during the weekends. I got cough, flu, fever, body ache and red eye. I think i'm dying. These are the symptoms. Okay! stupid me.

I'm just on and off over him.

Sometimes i thought i okay with it. Accept and just let go.

But today.. i'm totally not okay with it.
I told yen tinge that i got a feeling that he is already over it.
Of course that will definitely ache my heart again. 
I will not think about it. Okay. I know i'm bluffing but i will try my best.

Been having tests for last week and this week. Feel like financial was quite okay. But econ wasn't. Oh ya.. POA test is coming up. I should study. I need to get my mind off him. At least for this week, i didn't dream so much about him. 

Not posting any photo cause i'm too lazy. And yes. The sims! I can't wait to play with it. So i can be super super busy!
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(no subject) [Oct. 29th, 2007|10:45 pm]
yilingme
[Current Mood |okayokay]
[Current Music |Used to]

I realised that i had actually make all my friends worrying about me. I definitely have to get over this fast but i do need time. :) Thanks for being there for me. I love you girls! Oh ya.. i want flower. Probably sunflowers to brighten up my day. Haha..

Love is something that is so amazing. It makes two persons cry and laugh. Couples don't have to meet everyday. It is the time they spent together, this is why there are memories. There's not a need to spend every day together. What matters is the time that they spent together. Looking back at all the photos and hearing songs bring back so much feelings and emotions... Unfortunately, it's impossible to go back to the past already...

I just sent an email to him. I know it probably doesn't mean anything to him now. But i still mailed it in the end.


But it's all out of love.
(if not i won't even bother so much to msg or call you.)

I gave up my countless times of my pride.
(cos i treasured what we had.)

I'll still be here for you.
(despite all that you've done to disappoint and hurt me.)

But once i get over it, i will be here just only a friend.
(cos you've given me up)

What can you do when the only one who can stop you from crying, is the one making you cry

'What is hard to do, but proof of truly loving, is saying 'I LOVE YOU' to the one who hurt you.

The test of love doesn't come when you're together, it comes when you part ways, and realize that in spite of "breaking up" the love is still there. And you just can't forget everything.

I miss you when something really good happens, because you're the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you're the one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow, and me tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you the most when I lay awake at night, and think of all the wonderful times that we spent with each other for those were some of the best and most memorable times of my life.

Oh, I shouldn't care or wonder where and how you are, but I can't hide this hurt inside my broken heart. I'm just fighting back emotions that I've never fought before because I'm not supposed to love you anymore.

Whatever it is.. Yen tinge! Remember what i told you.. I want happy pill! You know what it is..

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